Last night I finally wrote her an email, after a long month. And tonight there was a response back from her. And she didn't sit there and judge me for anything, but at the same time told me exactly what I've been thinking myself and what I think others have been afraid to tell me.
She also pointed out that she's 22, and I'm not, "but only for a few more days." Yup. 23 more, in fact. Where did it all go? Have I really spent almost four years away from her? Is it really 4 years since we took a Jessica's 18th birthday road trip to Monterey Bay and found this amazing beach that we spent almost the entire trip at? She had just gotten married. She had been married something like a week when we went. Who goes on a road trip without their spouse that soon after marriage? Sam. Because she knows that it's probably the last time, and because she knew how hard it was for me to not be going to school, and she knew how much I really wanted to go.
I first met Sam at freshman orientation. We were both wearing our bleached/acid washed jeans. At the lunch break we went back to our separate best friends and told them about this cool girl that we met in our group. We didn't see each other again until the second day of the second semester of freshman year. Neither of us were wearing those distasteful jeans. I sat next to her in my new English honors class, and she leaned over and whispered that she remembered me running for ASB and that she had voted for me. We were pretty much best friends on the spot.
Our first year or two in high school we had this group of best friends with TONS of drama! It was me, Sam, Sam Bacon and Amber. Both Sams are married now with toddlers, and Amber's pregnant. And although I wish it were me, at the same time, none of them have the opportunity to go to school like I do. I'm lucky. It's a different path, but it's no less important or amazing.
I got lucky with having Sam as my friend. She's brilliant. And kind. And keeps me laughing when we're together. And she loves God so much and trusts in Him like none other. She's smart and talented. She's forgiving and hardworking. She loves her daughter and she sticks with Casey no matter what, even after 4 years of marriage. She is a great and strong woman. Sam exemplifies motherhood and what it means. She's a choice daughter of God and I am so lucky to have had her in my life.
I'm lucky that she went along with my weird ideas, like reading poetry in a cemetery late at night. I'm lucky that we loved The Dead Poet's Society so much that we started to have our own RDPS. I'm lucky that she was there through my parent's divorce. I'm lucky that even after almost four years of being apart, she still writes to me, wants to see me, and cares about me.
I love this girl!
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