Whisper

Tonight I ran off to take a physics test. While leaving I realized that I needed a ruler and went back in the door to get one from Marie. It took a couple of minutes and I was already running late. I ran out again and I was only to the bottom of the driveway when I realized that I had neither my keys nor my phone on me. Although I was barely out of the complex I decided to keep going. Part of me told me to go back. The other part of me reasoned with myself that Heather is always home, Marie would be back from tutoring pretty soon after I had finished the test, I was already late and if I were to get locked out all I had to do was go to the two apartments directly above mine to sit in either Megan's or Lauren's/Harriet's apartment. I continued on.

Right before 10pm I finished my test and came straight to my apartment. As I approached the apartment I noticed that my entire side of the building's lights were off and Heather's car was gone (really? She never leaves the apartment and the one time I need her...). I tried my door anyway. Locked. I rang the door bell. Nothing. I awkwardly waited for Kelsi and Weston to stop kissing on the upper part of the stairwell and went to Megan's. No one answered. Lauren's/Harriet's looked empty and dark. I went back down to sit by the door. I tried not to cry. I had no way of contacting Marie, wasn't sure if David would be home if I tried to walk to his apartment, and had no desire to go back up the hill a third time today. And I had another test to study for and wanted to sleep. I thought about breaking in via the living room window, but it looked pretty sturdy. I could have gone next door to wait- but those girls are mean and probably would have yelled at me. I sat for a couple of minutes and remembered Marie mentioning that Heather had a spare key outside. But where? I sat on the stairs and looked around. And then I got up. And I looked in a place that I never would have looked before- and found it right away.

I remember a distinct time when I was driving with Boyd and Hayley to Rochelle's 19th birthday party. I left my purse in the car and shut the door, starting to walk off. I had forgotten to lock the door. Something told me to go back and take care of it, and it nagged at me, but I hesitated before continuing on. Just after I had decided to continue Boyd stopped and asked if we had all locked our doors. I said no and he replied that he really thought we should. I locked mine. Maybe nothing would have happened had I not locked my door. But it was such a distinct "did you lock your door, Miss Callahan?" that it was hard to shake off. That's how I felt as I continued on to the Testing Center.

I think that it is so easy to ignore the promptings of the Holy Ghost. I can easily write them off as being paranoid. But they are distinct impressions that I ignore. I've been wondering about certain things recently and my friends all give me the same answer: pray. I always respond with: I never get answers. Maybe I do but I don't recognize them. I write them off as my own thoughts. I think that tonight was a test that I failed. I did not heed the prompting to turn my butt around and get my keys. Either Heavenly Father was testing me on this, or He was reminding me exactly how I tend to interpret the Spirit. And even after I failed at this test, he created a way for me to get inside anyway, but guiding me straight to the spare key.