Change

Once upon a time, on a Wednesday night after Zumba, I got a phone call asking me to come in for an interview to be a conference assistant (fourth year). I set up the appointment with this feeling that I should not be doing it. I went home and called Skyler crying because I didn't know what to do and I felt confused. He told me to pray. I told him just to tell me what to do. We hung up.

Then I went and sat on the couch and looked at the BYU job website and there was a job available working for Campus Accommodations as a summer conference card allocations specialist. I knew the person (Kyle) hiring for the job because I'd worked with him before during conference check-ins in the past. As I had a vague understand of how Campus Accommodations worked and what they would have me do, I applied, on a whim.

The next day during one of my classes I got a voicemail from Kyle asking me to call him the next day. I did and he asked me if I'd be able to start at the beginning of the next week. I told him that I was still working for Bev so I couldn't. He sounded disappointed and we hung up. And then I cried on Skyler's shoulder (I had made him come over to hold my hand during the call) and told him that I didn't understand because I felt like I wasn't supposed to be a CA and I thought that that job would have been perfect. Later that day I had my CA interview, which was a complete disaster.

Somehow I ended up getting the CA job again despite the terrible interview. I had about four days to decide whether or not to take the job. I prayed and I kind of just had this empty feeling. But nothing else was popping up on the job website and who wouldn't want to spend another summer living next door to Skyler and meowing at his window so Monday morning came and I emailed Vic and told him I'd take the job. Afterward I continued to feel empty. I planned the layout of my room and decided to make a studio. But two of the hall advisers asked me if I was excited and I honestly told them that I was not and explained that I was hoping to be excited but because I never felt like I got an answer to my prayers that I still felt lost and confused. They said that they understood.

Yesterday I got a phone call from Kyle. They had an opening for the same job I had applied to earlier but working with EFY rather than with sports camps. He asked if I had a summer job and I told him that I had agreed to be a CA. He asked me if I wanted to interview and I said yes. Today I went in at 10am. The interview ended at 10:30am. At lunch with Rochelle and Blair around 12:20pm I got another call from Kyle offering me the position. I said yes.

I will be working to make meal cards and room assignments for EFY for the summer and because this year will have more EFY at Helaman I will still be in contact with Bev (who has been great), Skyler, David, Ariel, Maraina, Chelsey (if she works the desk) and my favorite hall advisers. I won't get free room and board and I don't know what I'm going to do about where to live for the summer, but I will work 40 hours a week (sometimes more) at $8.25 an hour, which is more than they typically start people. And they'll switch me to a different position for the fall so that I'll still work for them. And the best part is... no more Tim!

This afternoon Kyle and I had a meeting with Bev to talk about when I could start training so that I could keep all my desk shifts so she wouldn't be left without another desk attendant. I could tell that Bev was upset (sad upset not mad upset) about losing me, but after Kyle left she told me that she knew it would be good for me, and I would make more money, but that she would miss me. She asked Kyle if she could call me while I was at work when she would inevitably have questions about conferences over the summer. I really thought that she was going to cry. And it made me love her more.