Yes, This is a Rant Post.

"Dear Jessica,
You did very well last night but as you know, there are only 60 minutes to cast in each show and I'm afraid there wasn't space for you this time around. Please don't stop writing and coming to Humor U as I truly feel there is a place for you here. Work on delivery and stage presence now, your writing is already quite good. I wish there was something else I could say, but that's just the way it is. Our open mic will be on May 5th. I won't be around anymore, but I have a good feeling that there will be a place for you in the club then.
Much love,
Pete"

Oh, a "good feeling"? That in almost two months there will be a place for me? But you won't exactly be around then so you can't quite be sure, right? And if Jefferson goes back to being president I'm pretty sure it will never happen.

"So does this mean that I have to do another two shows in a row to be a full cast member, or just one?"

"Not necessarily. That is like a secondary way to get into the club if club members aren't really sure after an open mic. If you are clearly ready at an open mic and everyone agrees, you are automatically in"

So, what are you even saying here? That after working my butt off week after week for the last three months I can't get in the secondary way, but hopefully in two months enough people will leave that HOPEFULLY I can get in after a FOURTH open mic?

I'm sorry, but that's not really good enough, is it? I honestly don't even know how I feel right now. I feel hurt. And depressed. And devastated. Like I've tried so hard to get into something for nothing. Like I've spent the last couple of months writing and rewriting jokes, making everyone I know listen to them, starting a focus group and even going to every single club meeting for nothing. I am tired of open mics. I'm tired of having to write completely new material all the time and being judged and torn down just to make the joke better and then being told in the end that I'm "not as good as Josh". It's not even about Josh! This is about me. This is about the fact that I don't feel like I should have to go through this again. I don't think that after all the dedication I have shown up until this point that I should have to wait until May to MAYBE get into the club. Practice my delivery and stage presence? I'm sorry that I'm not a loud stuck up jerk. I don't want to do well simply by yelling and being rude. And yes, I get nervous, but who wouldn't get nervous in front of 13 people who are superior to you in comedy? It is hard. And I already feel as if no one (besides Josh) has had to go through this much just to get into the club. Everyone else did an open mic, a call back, and then were in. Since the open mic I've done that they've liked, I've done two open mics, two dress rehearsals, one show and ten club meetings. And if all goes well I'll have at least one more open mic before I'm in, but probably one open mic, two dress rehearsals, two shows and twenty club meetings. Is this even worth it?